unbreak these hearts

They say they love you but they don’t really love you - not like you loved before your heart is broken - by people, life, circumstance.  I was a lucky one because in my childhood nothing was expected of me - it was years before anything was expected of me really - and I never had any connection with those doing the expecting. Asking me to do something probably had as much weight as asking a Dalmatian.  But weight is really what it is - before all those expectations I had time to love - time to let my body feel something wild and thrilling. I say love now but there is a part of me that thinks that all of life is a process of desensitization.  Our taste buds dull - and some fight against this aggressively - looking for newer or wilder tastes - because the alternative is scarier, that tomorrow will be less.