Sipping the sounds of a slow life

I can quell my mind with awareness as well as I can with distraction. Broaden my awareness.

Let it fill up the space between what I’m trying to think about and my tirelessly searching mind. Let the explorer’s thirst be quenched by the little noticings of the world changing.

When I am checking my phone...what’s the question I am asking?
What does the world think about me now? - > Am I liked?
Has anyone reached out because they need me - > Am I needed?

So I design my behavior so that I’m getting the feedback I want - that I am liked and that I am needed.

Am I disliked and unneeded - also yes - but I have designed my behavior to avoid that feedback.

Should I use my phone as a brick of light made to quell my insecurities and feed my proclivities? That’s a better question.

Do I like myself?
Do I need myself?
What do I need myself to do?
Also better questions -

who’s answer won’t be found easily in the phone.