A recipe for your perfect love

You’re looking for someone that it feels safe to talk to, whatever you need to say

Someone who hugs you without you asking,

and makes you breakfast every day

You’re looking for someone who is kind

and patient

and forgiving

You’re looking for someone you want to kiss, and often, and with who the kisses light you up

You want a good work life balance, someone who knows how to relax, someone to workout with you, to laugh with you, not to put any pressure on you.

You deserve who you’re looking for,

I’m too impatient, I’m too greedy, I’m too stern, and too quick to temper. My words don’t come out right.

This is only what so far I’ve figured out.
Who knows all the unsaid ways I’ve let you down. What unmet fires inside you need.

We had a late night therapy session and you said you wanted to quit. It became a fight and I think you don’t know why.

It’s not a fight because you want to quit.

It’s a fight because you have been lying to me. Because you’ve been hurting and keeping that to yourself. I think you do that everywhere.

Your dreams, your work, your feelings, your hopes, What you want and don’t want, what hurts you and what helps you.

your love feels impossibly distant, locked away and hidden from me.

I don’t know why it doesn’t feel safe here.

I don’t know why you don’t.

You deserve to find somewhere you do. With someone you do.



I’m looking for someone who will break the silence,

cut the tension with a hug,

a smile, a thought,

who will contradict in the direction of positivity,

who will lay themselves bare before me, and let me do the same.

I’m looking for someone that is in it for the long haul, 
sewing seeds of change and growth

loving me, listening to me, in all my rambunctious confusion, listening deeper for my soul



I want it to be me
I want it to be you